trust beyond reason
I smoked for over 16 years, then, one night I stopped because someone I loved died.
As most people know, cigarette smoking is hugely addictive. So, most people might be shocked that someone who smoked for that long could stop and never look back. Of course I had cravings, especially when I passed close to someone who was smoking, or when life threw my back against a wall, and I needed an emotional brace.
But while it wasn't easy, I just had to stop. I remember the night I quit, clearly. I was in my living room smoking a cigarette when I got a call from my mother. She'd call to break the sad news that an elderly sister from our church had passed. Dear Sister Collingwood.
Sister Collingwood was nearly 100 years old, and feeble, when she closed her eyes for the last time. But, in that split moment of getting that crushing phone call, I instantly remembered her when she was young and energetic. Back then she sang and laughed and played with me and the other children at church every week. She was in charge of instilling the love for Jesus in our little hearts, and at the moment of my sadness that night, I couldn't help but think, that she was the Jesus of my childhood. She represented him well. She was the one who waltzed into the room with the broadest smile, and cheery voice, and sang with us, and pat our heads, and made our day a little heaven on earth.
And here I was, smoking my life away, after all she had planned and executed to show me how much God loves us, that he sent his son to die for all the nonsense we've ever done. So, I walked tearfully to my kitchen sink, cigarette in hand, opened the tap, soaked what was left of the cigarette, threw it in the bin, and that was that.
No warning of possible lung cancer, no worry of eventually getting bad breath from years of smoking, no concern for the eyes that looked disapprovingly at a woman smoking - none of that made me want to stop slowly killing myself. But the love that sister Collingwood showed me, that was enough to remind me that my life is precious enough, for someone to cheerily nurture it.
As I write this post, a bible text comes to mind. Ezekiel summed up how willing God is to help us change our hearts for the better. And his willing partners, in people like Sister Collingwood, help make that change easy peasy.
Hi, I'm Charmaine Daisley and I'm inviting you to share my journey of living a pretty healthy Christian lifestyle. I'll share my adventures of eating healthy and feeding my mind with the word of God - plus anything pretty that can bring some inspiration and joy to our lives. When I'm not managing this blog, you can find me writing up a storm or doing creative brainstorming for clients.
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